Darren
08-30-2008, 11:18 PM
I do everynow and then...
But then i think, how will it affect my family? How will it affect my friends?
When you feel you've had enough....or better, when you feel the world has had enough, you feel like you need to take that butcher knife to your throat and slit everything that is fear to you....away...until it lies in a bloody pool in your bedroom...or bathroom...whatever
Everything you've ever loved..gone, everything you ever believed in...gone, everything you've ever worked hard towards wether it be reputation or life abitions...gone
Can one really leave everything behind so easily? All that troubles us? Can it really be solved so simply as killing one-self?
What would thy lord think? If he or possibly she exist? What would the family think? Especially if they think you were perfectly fine! Then they find out that you've killed yourself...would they think they really paid attention to you?...would they think they really knew you?
As far as i know whom ever has killed themselves has killed themselves for a reason, some have gone down in history for it..and some have not. I do also know that people have killed themselves for pointless reasons.
Which reminds me of the time my friend was drunk and she just got dumped....she and some other people came to a party i was at....she came to me upset, i in my drunken state comforted her as i normally would but she left..which it had to be the worse rain storm ever to be...I followed her, she kept trying to drown herself in the oversized puddles (seriously..they were too big and in too many numbers). I followed her and stopped her countless of times untill we met up to some of her friends, i let them take care of her from then. I returned soaking wet, without a dry pair of clothes..i slept that night wet and freezing....it wasn't till the next afternoon i got home and took a shower then to actually get warm dry clothes. I th ink to this day what would of become of her if i never stopped her? I mean she has lost like ALOT and i do mean ALOT of weight to this very day....the disappointing thing is the next day i talked to her on msn...and she didn't remember it, i mean fair enough she was pretty wasted..but she never even thanked me for it =/
God knows how i got into that ramble...
Too much vodka xD You have NO idea how many times i had to delete and correct all of that LOL
Ignore an old man's drunken words
But then i think, how will it affect my family? How will it affect my friends?
When you feel you've had enough....or better, when you feel the world has had enough, you feel like you need to take that butcher knife to your throat and slit everything that is fear to you....away...until it lies in a bloody pool in your bedroom...or bathroom...whatever
Everything you've ever loved..gone, everything you ever believed in...gone, everything you've ever worked hard towards wether it be reputation or life abitions...gone
Can one really leave everything behind so easily? All that troubles us? Can it really be solved so simply as killing one-self?
What would thy lord think? If he or possibly she exist? What would the family think? Especially if they think you were perfectly fine! Then they find out that you've killed yourself...would they think they really paid attention to you?...would they think they really knew you?
As far as i know whom ever has killed themselves has killed themselves for a reason, some have gone down in history for it..and some have not. I do also know that people have killed themselves for pointless reasons.
Which reminds me of the time my friend was drunk and she just got dumped....she and some other people came to a party i was at....she came to me upset, i in my drunken state comforted her as i normally would but she left..which it had to be the worse rain storm ever to be...I followed her, she kept trying to drown herself in the oversized puddles (seriously..they were too big and in too many numbers). I followed her and stopped her countless of times untill we met up to some of her friends, i let them take care of her from then. I returned soaking wet, without a dry pair of clothes..i slept that night wet and freezing....it wasn't till the next afternoon i got home and took a shower then to actually get warm dry clothes. I th ink to this day what would of become of her if i never stopped her? I mean she has lost like ALOT and i do mean ALOT of weight to this very day....the disappointing thing is the next day i talked to her on msn...and she didn't remember it, i mean fair enough she was pretty wasted..but she never even thanked me for it =/
God knows how i got into that ramble...
Too much vodka xD You have NO idea how many times i had to delete and correct all of that LOL
Ignore an old man's drunken words